It's something about that initial contact.
That moment.
I mean, we exist a part from each others sights consistently.
It could be days before we are next to each other, and that doesn't make me question whether or not I am on his mind...Like he is on mine...
I don't wonder if the love is fading, because I feel that the exact opposite is true.
Still.
It's something about that first hug. The "hello" in his hand grabbing mine.
The second his fingertips graze my cheek.
I anticipate the electricity but am still caught off guard at the point of impact.
Sometimes, I want to go through intentional bouts of long distant agony, so that I experience his touch at maximum strength.
It's love.
I know.
But in that moment, it's as if I've always known...but not quite enough.
I missed a detail. A hidden, minuscule portion of the obvious.
That contact overwhelms my awareness.
And if doubt could ever manage it's way into my heart, it could never be then.
In that moment.
...There's just no room.
I mean, we exist a part from each others sights consistently.
It could be days before we are next to each other, and that doesn't make me question whether or not I am on his mind...Like he is on mine...
I don't wonder if the love is fading, because I feel that the exact opposite is true.
Still.
It's something about that first hug. The "hello" in his hand grabbing mine.
The second his fingertips graze my cheek.
I anticipate the electricity but am still caught off guard at the point of impact.
Sometimes, I want to go through intentional bouts of long distant agony, so that I experience his touch at maximum strength.
It's love.
I know.
But in that moment, it's as if I've always known...but not quite enough.
I missed a detail. A hidden, minuscule portion of the obvious.
That contact overwhelms my awareness.
And if doubt could ever manage it's way into my heart, it could never be then.
In that moment.
...There's just no room.
wow. incredible.
ReplyDeleteI had to step away for a year. But just from reading the both of you previously and now ... there's no doubt in my mind that what's shared is bliss, in its purest form.
ReplyDeleteThis is me @ Sometimes, I want to go through intentional bouts of long distant agony, so that I experience his touch at maximum strength. I purposely distance myself a few extra days from my lady friend just to get the maximum when we come together again. LOL.
I'd love to have that one day.
ReplyDelete@ Chymere: Thanks sis :)
ReplyDelete@ Don: For us it was 8 months.
I'd be just fine if I was with him most of the time, but I like the fact that we grind so hard separately. The time we spend together is a welcome refuge/recharge. LOL @ you purposefully distancing yourself. I think girls are just greedy. ;)
@ vincee101: Don't worry. I'd wait another lifetime for love. When it comes you don't even worry yourself with how long it took to get here.
Great post...I know that feeling all to well!!
ReplyDelete@ Divinely Favored: Amen! Thanks for reading!
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